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This is how I popped – version Lily

Lily is more than 9 months old now so I better write this down now before I completely forget about the entire birth process.

# – This was taken last month when we’re on holiday in Perth. She loves her food!

On 18 February 2018 not long after dinner, I went to pee. When I wiped, I found myself looking at a bloody gloop on the tissue paper. I knew what it was, as it’s the most familiar sight to me. It’s the ‘bloody show’. While I dreaded the sight of it in my previous pregnancies, this time I was elated because I knew my baby was coming. She’s fully-formed at more than 39 weeks, fully baked as they put it.

# – This selfie was taken on 17 February 2018. What a whale haha.

I should have called my dad then to come pick Liam up but for some reason I didn’t think it was going to happen until the next day. How wrong we were….

We put Liam to bed as usual, and after that settled down to watch a movie together. It. Yeap, of all movies, I chose to watch last year’s most terrifying flick – It. In hindsight the movie had probably hastened my labour haha. Towards the end of the movie, I was curling my toes everytime a contraction kicked in. As the credits rolled, I told Gareth I think I needed to go to the hospital. We called my dad, told him what was happening and then left for the hospital with Liam still fast asleep at home alone.

I know what you’re thinking we probably should have woken him up and bring him along but it’s almost 3am. We had a plan in place. My dad was to drive to the hospital to get our house keys and then he would collect Liam from our house which was a 5 minutes drive from the hospital. It was the plan that made the most sense! It’s only about 15 minutes drive during that time of night so Liam would only have been left alone sleeping for at most 35 minutes?

Anyway, dad successfully collected Liam and I could finally focus on the labour. I eschewed epidural and gas because my labour with Liam was pretty straightforward without drug other than gas, as with the dear twins so I thought Lily’s would be the same too. Well, wrong. Turned out Lily just wouldn’t engage. She’s stuck somewhere above my hip and even when I was fully dilated in less than 2 hours….she just wouldn’t drop down! My blood pressure was hitting the roof and doc gave me an injection to control it.

In hindsight, I should have taken the epidural and probably I could endure the wait for Lily to engage? I was in so much pain with nothing to push and everytime I pushed my blood pressure shot up. Lily’s heartbeat also slowed down everytime I pushed. It was pretty traumatic, I’d tell you that.

After what seemed like an eternity I was ready to throw in the towel. I shouted at my obygyn to cut her out. He looked relieved upon my request. But it was like 4 something in the morning and they had to wait for the on-call anesthetist to drive to the hospital from her home which was 30 minutes away. Man, I was so crushed when I heard that! It was the longest 30 minutes I had to wait. My contractions were fast, furious and fucking hellish. With my previous pregnancies the babies were out pretty quick so I didn’t have to endure the pain so long but this time I was writhing for 2 hours plus (like level 10cm dilation pain) with a baby who’s not in a hurry fml

At last the anesthetist arrived, a nice well-spoken Malay lady. I asked her if she’s giving me an epidural and she said no, I was far too advanced in labour to get one so I’d be knocked out completely. I was very happy to hear that cause I just wanted to not feel anything anymore. I wasn’t prepared for a surgery so did not fast they had to give me some meds to stop me from vomiting. It’s funny how everything seemed extra slow when you’re in tremendous pain. From being rolled towards the operating room to being slid to the table under the lights, to breathing in the cocktail of bliss – everything felt so slow. I just wanted to die, not kidding.

Anyway, I breathed in deep, I guess my eyes closed and when I opened them, I found myself in a recovery room with warm air blowing up my nether region. I asked a nurse how’s my baby, she said she’s fine and waiting for me. I felt so happy. At last, we did it. I did it. My living baby, my rainbow. Lily’s here. I asked the nurse if she could bring her to me for skin to skin. She said I will get to see her later when I get to my room. I didn’t argue. I fell back asleep.

Later I was transfered to my room and they brought Lily in and placed her on my chest. She went to work at my boobs straightaway!

I was beyond words. She’s real! She’s real and she’s ours and she’s safe and healthy and did not need NICU time. Liam finally has somebody to play with!

# – Yeap, this is our baby girl!

The past 1.5 years I had been in a limbo, entangled in a messy web of grief, confusion, fear, disbelief, anger, and also joy, desperately clawing my way towards the end goal – giving birth to a full-term, healthy baby, in spite it all. Lily’s arrival was like a magic salve for all my pain.

# – 3.54kg of love :)

# – All the men I love with Lilypad.

And I finally did it. We did it, Gareth.

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Clear your calendar for the Applecrumby Open House 2.0

You’ve probably seen how much I love my Applecrumby and Fish diapers and baby wipes on my instagram and Facebook and wondered if I’m for real.

Well, the answer is, yes, I’m for real! I’ve been using them for over a month now and to say that I’m in love is an understatement.

Lily with her favourite diapers.
Applecrumby diapers

The diapers are so thin and yet, it’s able to withstand over 12 hours of pee and poop! I believe it’s thanks to the generous cutting of the diaper, what I like to call the extra fringe around the thighs. I keep waiting for that pooplosion to happen but so far, touch wood, it hasn’t.

Yeap, that’s exactly what you think it is and thank goodness it’s securely contained!

Also, must say that I’m thankful that the design of the diaper is not only chic, but very practical for visual confirmation because I do not want to stick my nose at my baby’s bum and sniff to find out whether she’s pooped, hello!?

And then, there’re the baby wipes. Boy are they thick! The texture is so luxurious it’s like wiping with a soft cloth! My whole family loves it including Master Daddy Boss Husband. I love that they come in 3 sizes – 80s, 20s and 10s. I have them in my house, cars and of course, they fit perfectly in my cavernous Ju-Ju-Be and when the occasion calls for it, my teeny weeny Furla Metropolis.

Most importantly, there’s no nasty, scary stuff in the diapers or baby wipes as Applecrumby and Fish products are Safe, Natural and Organic (S.N.O).

The family’s favourite wipes.
Applecrumby Baby Wipes

You can take my word it but for you skeptics out there, there is now a way for you to experience the products yourself before making a purchase.

Behold, the Applecrumby Open House 2.0!

Venue: 12, Jalan Teknologi 3/6,
Taman Sains Selangor 1 Kota Damansara 47810,
Petaling Jaya Selangor, Malaysia
Date: 27/7/2018 (Friday) – 28/7/2018 (Saturday)
Time: 9.00am to 6.00pm

Applecrumby Open House

During the Open House, you can try out the much-loved Safe, Natural and Organic (S.N.O) Applecrumby and Fish products before buying. The helpful Applecrumby team will also be on-site to assist you with any question you may have.

Needless to say, there will be tonnes of exclusive bundle deals available on the two days!

Get the Chlorine-Free Baby Diapers, Extra Thick Baby Wipes, Extra-Concentrated Cleaning Set, together with their newest addition, the Fluorescence-Free Nursing Pad and many more other premium baby brands at mind-bogglingly great prices.

You big spenders will also receive fantastic freebies with single transaction orders from RM299 and above, just by showing your Eventbrite RSVP ticket and proof of purchase.

Remember 27 and 28 July, Friday & Saturday, it’s the Applecrumby Open House!

p/s: Use promo code AFxKimberzilla to get RM12 off minimum purchase of RM100 when you shop online.

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Lets Celebrate 70 Years of Healthy Skin with Cetaphil

It’s Cetaphil’s 70th anniversary and to celebrate this momentous occasion, they are giving away 70 Cetaphil hampers to 70 happy Malaysians worth a whopping RM270 each!

Cetaphil was invented in 1947 by a pioneering pharmacist in Texas. Its first product, the “Cetaphil Cleansing Lotion”, now known as Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser still uses the very same formula! Over the years, Cetaphil has expanded their products to Malaysians including Cleansers & Moisturisers for the entire family (Cetaphil) and for children under 2-year-old (Cetaphil Baby), Sun Protection (Cetaphil Daylong) and also a specialized skincare range for eczema-prone skin (Cetaphil Restoraderm).

As you have already know, Cetaphil is one of the most loved products in my family. I love the Cetaphil’s simple philosophy of achieving healthier skin with just two steps: Cleanse and Moisturise.

Our everyday starts and ends with cleansing using the Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser, followed by the Cetaphil Moisturizing Cream. They’re great for both face and body, hypoallergenic and dermatologist recommended. Personally, even Liam’s paediatrician recommended Cetaphil to us.

I am happy to collaborate with Cetaphil to gift these hampers to a few of Malaysian readers and all you have to do is to:

Tell me your skin story and how can Cetaphil help in my comment section.

Each hamper contains the Cetaphil Gentle Skin Cleanser, Cetaphil Moist Lotion and other products too. The most engaging and authentic stories will win a Cetaphil hamper with all the products you need before the year 2017 wraps up! Remember to leave an active email address so I could get in touch with you.

Thank you Cetaphil for making everybody’s skins healthier, softer and gorgeous since 1947. To find out more about Cetaphil, click to

All the best in winning the awesome Cetaphil hamper and happy 70th birthday again Cetaphil!

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