am an embarassment to my mother.

here are some videos taken by horng at FA‘s 21st birthday party at eyeris‘ condo.

these videos make me want to stop drinking alcohol because i am so fucking loud & annoying. been ages since i got drunk like that, most of the time i just quietly fall asleep.

in here i speak atrocious mandarin…

although i kinda pwn at jenga :P

here recounting what might be the stuff that i’ve consumed that were keeping me awake.

and the aftermath….




i’m sorry, mommy.


i’m really tired. tired of the bullshit and games and ridiculousness. tired of the constant fickleness. tired of guessing, the bitchiness, tired of carving a fake smile on my face. tired of the constant display of stupidity. tired of being blackmailed. tired of the never ending dramas. tired of being unhappy. i’m tired of myself.

a counterpart of mine called to announce his good news. i listened with utter envy, wondering when i could do exactly the same. let go and let live. we shared each other’s story, but mine harsher in so many ways. and yet he has decided enough is enough, he will seek what he deserves.

i’m still just wondering when it’s my turn.