Bitchy = stupid.

What to blog?

Sometimes I do miss the early days of my blogging. I could share, gloat and rant with youthful abandonment.

It’s not the same anymore. I find it so hard to put my thoughts into writing, afraid of polluting the universe with negative energy. Yes, I sound exactly just that – a kumbaya singing weirdo.

But I do mean every word, I mean it when I say I am trying not to poison my environment with negativity. I believe it and I feel much peaceful and calm eversince I accepted the fact that whatever that I say or write, they linger on for a long, long time.

I do try to be a better, accepting person. I try everyday. In fact I try in my every waking moment. Some days I take to it like duck to water, some days I struggle. I struggle bad.

And sometimes, especially when I haven’t had enough sleep or have had an especially long & hard day, I’d let it take me. The bitchiness, the snarky remarks, the viciousness inside me.

And when the sweet fruit of retribution is there, just lying there?

I long to pick it up and eat the fuck out of it. I will chomp and chomp and chomp, licking the sweet nasty juice off the corner of my lips, and chomp again, spitting the seeds out like they don’t matter. And I would do it all with a smile.

But mostly these days, I close my eyes and I breathe. I count one to ten. I think about how disappointed I would be with myself for succumbing to being a bitch. I don’t like being a bitch….been there, done that, got the t-shirt.

And for what?

For that smidgen of satisfaction from upsetting someone I dislike. Someone I don’t really even know? Why am I upset with someone I don’t even really know?

Yeah, bitchiness is starting to sound a lot like stupidity.

KGB Burgers

Feeling pudgy!!! Bad hair!!!!

# – One leg slightly out.
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Top/Dress from H&M. Skirt from don’t know where. Shoes from Bangkok. Bag from ri2k.

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Went to find my better half in Bangsar for dinner.

We decided to have burgers at KGB. It’s opposite Yeast. Very delicious burgers. I highly recommend it.

# – Yums.
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I love the kimchi fries. Was expecting some powdered kimchi flavoring but the chips came with real kimchi and beef bulgogi. Love it!

Massage

Desperately needed to clothe myself so I came up with this abomination.

# – Urgh.
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Dress from H&M. Shirt from some shop in Kenanga. Shoes from Bangkok. Bag from ri2k.

Need to sort my wardrobe out or shop more. Prefer the latter.

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Can anyone recommend a good male masseur? Clean massage please. My googling got me to a lot of places on the Internet that I now cannot undo.

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This sedentary lifestyle making me feeling so lethargic all the time. Need to get back on the treadmill :P