Of puffs and stuffs.

Had a major meltdown a couple of days ago. I was basically in tears about every 20minutes over the stupidest things. Poor Gareth, he suffered most all of the brunt, of course.

Sometimes I think right, I consider myself pretty damn easy to get along actually….so I really can’t imagine what those women who are super dramatic in public are like behind closed doors? Patient spouses/bfs I salute you all. How do you guys do it?

I have now calmed down of course. The painters have arrived (finally!) and I am no longer a bundle of crazy & tears. Thank goodness this shit does go away!

I am sweet as a freaking jar of sugar right now compared to two days ago. Even I like myself.

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Anyway, we have started giving out our wedding invitations. Shah, my amazing blog manager is the very first one to receive it :)

# -Shah with our bigass wedding invite. Wheeeee!

I can’t wait to give out the rest! The card sets the tone of our wedding, which I will talk about soon.

Actually, truth is I don’t really have the right words to describe the theme yet lol. A bit schizo but in a crazy good way! Like us!

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One of my favourite desserts in the entire world is berrilicious chocolate pavlova from Delicious. I eat too many of them, too many but NO REGRETS!

The perfect ratio of crispy chocolate meringues with thick chocolate shavings, fresh strawberries and real cream. ohmaigerddddd

I tried making it but my last attempt at chocolate meringue literally fell flat. Best to leave this sort of things to the professionals eh.

Anyway where am I trying to get at? Back to my meltdown a couple of days back, so I tried to fix the emo with a dessert. Went to Delicious 1U.

Ordered berrilicious chocolate pavlova. Enjoyed every single spoon of it and then….cream ran out. Trust me when I say it has to be eaten with every element together.

I got a bit upset (naturally) because normally they have a lot of cream but this particular day it was barely enough.

Gareth coaxed me to ask for more cream. I was so sure they wouldn’t give me but what do you know, they gave me more than enough! No questions asked, and with a really nice smile too :)

I was so happy coz they really made my day. In the end I wondered if they would give me more chocolate meringue and strawberries for my now extra cream if I asked.

Kidding, I didn’t go there.

# – The cream that broke my emo.

Thank you Delicious 1U.

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We have finally bought our marital bedsheets for the wedding.

Went for our regular 650 thread count in red. Pillow cases also red!

# – Red for luck.

By the way, if you want to get good sheets for extra thick king size mattress, go Home’s Harmony.

Good discounts and even more as member. Service is also above average.

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I made cream patisserie for the first time! Wonder what took me so long!? Those stuff are delicious!!

Stuffed them in choux buns (recipe for the choux pastry here) I haphazardly whipped up and voila, CREAM PUFFS!

Will blog it when I make more next time. I think the secret is in using vanilla beans instead of fake vanilla extract. Makes all the difference.

# – My very inconsistently shaped but very consistently delicious homemade creampuffs.

Have a good week peeps!

Woohoo wedding planning progress!

I have made a lot of progress on wedding planning since my last post. So grateful that Mom’s staying with me over the week to help me sort out wedding stuff.

1. For one, I have found the dress! I finally understood what people mean when they say, “You know it when you see it”. At first I was quite worried because the first half dozen of places my mom and I went to had stuff that I didn’t really like.

Most of the dresses could be summed up as “okay but not quite”. Finally we went to this shop and the girl was showing me a bunch of ball gowns and I was on the verge of giving up explaining to her what I have in mind when suddenly she said she might have something downstairs.

Mom and I followed her and then she pulled out something from a large bag. I looked at it and my heart skipped a beat. I was like, please please please let it look good on me and let me look good in it!!!!

Then I put it on, and I felt a sensation in my chest, a good sort of sensation…not the type where you want to see a doctor but the type you want to start doing the chicken dance and sing I’m so happy…I’m so happy…I’m so happy and jolly and gay.

I was like…OMG I hope she’s not going to quote me a crazy price. And then she told me the price and I was like…:D :D :D :D :D :D

Nobody has seen the dress except me, mom and people from the shop and I will keep it that way until the wedding day. I don’t even need it altered I think but I reckon when I lose more weight I might nip it in a bit more. As for the evening dress, I’m quite chilled about it…because I want something fun, flirty and a little slutty (lol) for the later part of the reception aka PARTY TIME.

2. We have also found a wedding cinematographer we really like, thanks to a tip from a blog reader. Thank you Yu Jen! We’re meeting them this weekend to discuss the details and hopefully, by then we will have confirmed them.

3. My makeup and hair will be done respectively by Cassandra and Cindy from dominicabyc.com. Cassandra is a BOH Cameronian award winning makeup artiste and I loveeeeee her style. Very chic, clean and natural. Her brides are so gorgeous!

4. Gareth’s wonderful colleague, Chee Ling is helping us design our invites too. We’re loving what she’s done so far and she’s got an awesome idea with the invites which I’m so incredibly excited to share but I have to refrain because don’t want people to steal it *cue maniacal possessive laugh.

5. As for the wedding theme, it’s clearer than ever. I know exactly what to do, how the decor’s going to be, what is the feel and etc. I feel a lot calmer now and ready for some proper ground work.

6. I’ve got my wedding shoes while in Bangkok. I might change it I might not, we’ll see. Not that worried about shoes to be honest.

7. Still haven’t found an emcee, partially because we haven’t really been looking yet. I wish more emcees upload their gigs onto Youtube.

8. Photography will be by Anna-Rina of course. She also took our ROM pictures, which I was so happy with. Anna-Rina is great at capturing “moments”, she can speak like a gazillion languages which means she can communicate basically with all my guests (especially the non-English speaking elderly) and best of all, she’s just a bundle of positive energy!

9. We are doing cheesy studio photography. LOL. Yeap, not kidding. I asked specifically for indoor shoot only though, cause can’t be arsed to pose around in the heat in wedding costumes. Oh well, my grandmothers will be happy to hang pictures of us in gaudy gowns and white suit with our eyes closed on their walls. Trolololol.

10. Going to start dieting and exercise more, I promise.

Wedding woes.

Wedding planning is hideously stressful. I’ve started to realise that I can’t just do what I want, which is probably dumping the entire budget on a sick diving/shopping vacation. I’m not even excited about choosing a dress, I just want something that I can eat in.

Sometimes I wake up feeling like I need the most perfect, romantic, whimsical wedding. Other times, I just feel like FTS, I’m going to cook and invite 50 friends over to my house. No flowers, no ribbons, no fuss. But more often than not, I just want to go on a super holiday.

The other day I tweeted about wanting to elope. Someone replied, asking me, “I thought you’re already married”. And then it hit me….we are legally married. Even without the wedding, we are married. So why I am stressing myself sick about this gig?

I could literally just send everyone a note (people whom I’m supposed to care about being present at my wedding although I’ve never met them) that we’re married without a 9-course feast of over-priced mediocre food. I don’t even have to subject these strangers to the discomfort of RSVP-ing “No”.

I think what bugs me is that this is supposed to be my day. MINE. So why does all my planning now involve thinking about what these people whom I don’t know personally might feel about it? Why must I eat 9 course when I really just want oyster shooters and suckling pigs? Okay, and a soup.

I attended a friend’s garden wedding a while ago and I overheard one of her older relatives complaining about the food and the heat, very rudely & loudly. You can’t imagine how pissed off I was by it. This person was invited to celebrate the couple’s union, why was she so fucking self-absorbed about how she feels?

I wish these kind of people would just stop and think about the kind of negative energy that they are spreading at someone’s wedding! And it was a very beautiful and nicely done wedding by the way.

Sigh, am trying to summon enough courage to do exacty what I want with my wedding. It’s hard, but wish me luck.

Anyway, our ROM pictures taken in Putrajaya are ready! Our photographer was the awesome Anna-Rina. At first I was a bit worried that I might look chubby but Anna’s really good with finding my angles, so I’m really happy with the pictures :)

# – Our jolly & cheerful registrar.

# – With my parents & brothers after it’s signed, sealed & delivered.

# – This one is my favorites because we looked happy and relaxed :)

Thanks Anna for the beautiful pictures! <3