I have popped and this is how it went down. - Narcissism is Necessary

I have popped and this is how it went down.

Some of you might know, that I have given birth to our baby boy. His due date was supposed to be 22 September, but he decided to pop out at 32 week 3 day gestation, just before the month of July ended. In a nutshell, that’s too many weeks too early.

On 30 July 2014, my water broke at 5.30pm. I had the classic scene – a gush of water and some blood splashing onto my feet, just like in the movies. Thank goodness my husband was at home so he sent me straight to the hospital where I was immediately admitted to the delivery suite.

I was 1cm dilated by then, but I was feeling pretty normal physically. I was bleeding too but I wasn’t in pain. The husband and I hung out in the room chatting and surfing the Internet. Even got hubs to get me Mcdonalds for supper. After supper, I basically watched movies till wee hours in the morning.

Truth was, we were both effing scared and were just trying to keep the topic of delivering a baby off each other’s mind.

And then, it began.

And I am not shitting you, my contractions began right after I finished watching “What to Expect when You’re Expecting” on Fox channel. They started out like really painful menstrual cramps and got more painful as hours passed. I mean, I had semi-passed out from menstrual cramps before, but these, these were a whole new world of pain.

By 9am on 31 July 2014, I was about 3cm and my midwife told me if I wanted any pain relief or epidural this would be the time. I said no and regretted almost immediately after.

By the time I was 6cm dilated at around 11am, I was wailing like a banshee in a bathtub filled with holy water and begging for epidural. “JUST GIVE IT TO ME!!!!!!”

Alas, it was too late for an epidural. My only option was to go through with it, there’s no turning back. My only respite was the laughing gas (I think?) that I sucked, and sucked and sucked and sucked. Why call it laughing gas when I wasn’t laughing, gawddamnit!

# – Nobody could pry that gas away from me.

I remember at some point, the doctor calling out that I was 10cm dilated and I was prepped and then asked to push like I was pushing poop out whenever a contraction kicked in.

I also remember screaming about wanting to vomit, and someone shoving a kidney dish next to my face but thankfully I didn’t hurl.

Baby was out after 5 pushes according to the husband. I shall spare you the details of the birth. Anyway, he came into this world at 1.52pm on 31 July 2014. My contractions started at 5.30am and he came out at about 2pm, making the labour process a reasonable 8 hours plus.

And despite the holy mother trucking pain, I still think I had a very good labour; the only bleep being that it happened way too soon. My doctor was excellent, calm and clear with her instructions (so I managed to give birth without attending any antenatal class haha). My midwives were kind, understanding and supportive.

Props to the hubs especially, he was my rock during the labour. I can honestly say I don’t think I could do it trauma-free if he weren’t present. He also took pictures of everything, and I mean, everything, should I’m ever inclined to relive the experience.

When my doctor pulled him out and plopped him onto my chest, my first feeling at seeing him for the first time was relief.

Relieved that he’s out, and relieved that he’s not as small as I had imagined he would be. Still a meagre 1.9kg but in all considerations, pretty healthy for a premature baby his age.

# – Baby’s paediatrician working on him right after I birthed him.

Am glad my doc gave me the steroid jabs to strengthen his lungs when my mucus plug fell out 20 days prior.

To date, our baby has been in Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) for the past 11 days. And, he’s doing exceedingly well.

# – Our very first family portrait – about 8 hours after his birth.

Sure, he’s lost about 200 grams of water weight but he’s slowly climbing up to 1.8kg. He’s off CPAP by 3rd day and by the 4th day he was well enough to undergo kangaroo care (skin to skin therapy or as we call it – huggies time) with us. We visit him twice everyday for kangaroo care.

# – 1 day old, with daddy. Seeing pictures of him with wires and that thingy on his nose still gives me the emo.

# – 5 day old. He’s progressed so quickly and looking so good :)

# – 6 day old. What a poser!! He’s developed mild jaundice by now, can see a little yellow on his face.

I’ve been pumping milk around the clock because mother’s milk is really important to a premature baby. It’s quite magical that a woman’s body is able to customise milk to suit exactly what her baby needs. His jaundice has subsided and he’s up to 36mls per feed without vomitting (that’s like full term baby portion!).

# – Nomming his little piggies. He’s 8 days old here.

His doctor also has allowed me to breastfeed him directly, and he sucks like a champion. His sucking sounds are so loud, it’s embarrassing!

# – 9 day old. Hypnotising us with his eyes when we’re about to leave NICU. He does that everytime! We put him back on his bed and he would open his eyes and stare at us like that.

Yesterday doc even said that if all goes well, he should be moving to a normal nursery soon. I was so happy, I almost cried.

I have many goals in life, many involving a dozen slightly different versions of me hanging out by a body of water in very little clothings, but I can say with certainty now that my real current goal in life is really to fatten my baby up with my boob food. I am so pumped!!!!

p/s: All those giving birth scenes in movies…LIES. ALL LIES. How about multiplying the intensity by about a million, then we’re talking!


22 Responses to I have popped and this is how it went down.

  1. Chee Ching August 11, 2014 at 11:58 am #

    I sort of felt your pain, then AWWWWWW. Congrats again! Hehehe.

  2. Thara August 11, 2014 at 12:10 pm #

    Baby is so handsome! Can’t wait for more stories on motherhood from you! <3

  3. kate August 11, 2014 at 12:30 pm #

    he is adorable. congrats both of you and quick tell us what you’ve named him. take as many naps as you can so that you can be a little prepared when you take him home.

  4. ciki August 11, 2014 at 12:42 pm #

    you mah hero!! well done !!

  5. imantulen August 11, 2014 at 1:02 pm #

    hahahaaa….
    they say you’re never a woman till you give birth naturally….
    well, you ARE a woman now….
    it’s also good – no painkiller too…
    laughing gas – really makes you wonder why it’s called that….
    keep to your breastfeeding…
    mine took a year, by then we were wondering over the pain of the 1st bite – thankfully, no bite
    soon this blog will be full of baby food reviews, naturally…. hohohooo….
    he’s really cute.

  6. Jolene August 11, 2014 at 1:24 pm #

    I was waiting for this post since the end of July!! Everyday I’m back here I’m like “what! still the mucus plug post!”

    By the way, I learned about mucus plugs from your post. And WHY did i have to go google it after that! *traumatized*

    Also, totally falling in love with little baby’s eyes. Look at those double eyelids. Just perfect!

  7. KY August 11, 2014 at 1:51 pm #

    Congrats again Kim!

    And that “banshee in a bathtub filled with holy water” description, I almost burst out laughing in the office.

  8. Audrey August 11, 2014 at 2:07 pm #

    You are literally so pumped lolol. Congratulations and may he come home soon!

  9. beetrice August 11, 2014 at 2:27 pm #

    Congrats again Kim and Gareth! And love the name too (hoping I saw the correct one!) :P Double eyelids too – lucky feller! Here’s hoping he gets to come home soon! :)

  10. David August 11, 2014 at 7:02 pm #

    Kimberly, congratuations to you and Gareht!
    New mom and dad should be happy!

    Your courage and stregnth shine as a model for any young mother to be.

    I did notice you did not mention the little babies name! Have you and Gareth chosen his name?

    Praying for the little guy, you and Gareth that the days, weeks, months and years ahead will be the greatest love filled adventure that is beyond your imagination!

  11. Gina August 11, 2014 at 7:22 pm #

    Congratulations! He’s such a gorgeous baby! Happy pumping!

  12. Anne Aw August 11, 2014 at 8:55 pm #

    You shudda taken the epidural!!! I took it at 6 cm and i was like in heaven after that. Anyway great job mommy and congratulations once again. Now milking time ~~

  13. Sophia August 12, 2014 at 2:59 pm #

    Congratulations!!! Hope both mommy and baby are doing well! =)

  14. unkaleong August 12, 2014 at 5:19 pm #

    Congratulations! My breastfeeding friends swear by edamame to increase production. ;)

  15. Tim August 12, 2014 at 6:38 pm #

    Ouch painful to read. But many congrats both of you :)

  16. Joyce Rachel Lee August 12, 2014 at 10:22 pm #

    Congrats! Life as a mom is the best thing ever. My son is turning one year old this mid August. :D

  17. mela August 13, 2014 at 4:50 pm #

    Wow! You did it without epidural!! Brave!

    Congrats :D

  18. Jolyn Goh August 13, 2014 at 5:44 pm #

    Congrats.. He is beautiful. <3

  19. Bobby August 19, 2014 at 11:11 am #

    CONGRATS to both of you! And welcome to the parenting club! Get ready for the ride of your lives

  20. Gertrude August 27, 2014 at 12:03 am #

    Congratulations to you and your hubby. Your baby is beautiful!!!

  21. Alison September 21, 2014 at 3:40 pm #

    Congrats :}

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