July 23, 2010 - Narcissism is Necessary

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Happy Birthday to me.

In about an hour from now 26 years ago, my mom gave birth to her 1st born in Chinese Maternity Hospital. She was a colic baby and was most difficult to care for; she loved crying especially during other people’s sleeping hours.

Of course, she grew out of it eventually, and Mom thought that the worst was finally over. Alas, her baby girl hit puberty and along with it came the biggest egomania and hormonal rage. Mom realised that dealing with a colic baby was farrrrrrr better than a rebellious teenage daughter.

This young girl who talked back to her, said nasty things to her and who absolutely refused to listen to her – how could she be the baby she once sucked thick mucus out of a tiny nose with her mouth for?? I bet she was devastated.

Weren’t you, mummy? Hehe.

Later on, our relationship got better and better and early this year, she posted this on her blog which made me teared up:

My daughter was born on 23rd July (Mon) @ around 10am, weight 8lbs, she’s my 1st born and the only girl in the family.She was a colic baby..for the 1st 6 months she sleep during the day and wide awake during the night.

I sometime felt that she has been bullying me since the day she was born,during her teen year she use to bully her younger brothers,they call her name behind her back like “fei poh, pat poh chey chey, wong how, pa wong kai la” etc.etc..Her back up, of course the DADDY! Whenever ther’s a fight the daddy always turn around and speak in a very soft tone “girl y u like that” and to the boys his tone change completely.

Her rebellious during the 2nd ten years really make me sick, heartache and in tears most of the time, i hv been asking myself thousand time what hv i done to deserve this,is that part of growing up or im not the kind of mother she expect me to be and when is she going to grow up, grow out of it.

Before she graduate and announce she’s going out with an ang moh. I was like..now what..,what she got herself into but the daddy said ” trust her,she’s big girl now”. Ok,I should let go and trust her, that was 5 years ago..YES! the daddy is right, I’M VERY HAPPY FOR HER.

My daughter really really has grow up to become a fine young lady, she manage her life well, happy and most important got someone who’s sincerely,honestly love her and care for her.

As a mother,i feel proud and happy for her, although sometime she still give me the ‘headache’!

I guess it’s safe to say that I’m no longer a pain in my Mom’s life (ok, maybe sometimes). Now that’s the biggest achievement in my 26 years of life.

I love you mummy!

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