Suspended - Narcissism is Necessary

Suspended

I’m in pain. It feels like everything is on hold while the suffering creates itself to remind me that I can’t fool myself; there is a price to pay to get what I deserve. Everything is currently suspended except this paralysing agony that is from me but not controlled by me.

This is not my life. Am sleeping it off till my real life begins. Even then the pain keeps me half awake because being fully asleep would be half-cheating. Nobody can trick it, not even themselves. I’d have to do something more drastic to dull this, numb this.

I just want to not feel anything.

Posted from my Crackberry.

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7 Responses to Suspended

  1. KY June 17, 2010 at 4:27 pm #

    is this just PMS? emm

  2. angelin June 17, 2010 at 4:41 pm #

    poor kimberly..
    try drink more warm water or the best, warm ginger drinks…it’s work! no harm trying ;-)

  3. Merryn June 17, 2010 at 5:49 pm #

    girl, what happen? are you ok?

  4. yumyum June 17, 2010 at 7:47 pm #

    I think she’s bipolar.

  5. Yummy June 17, 2010 at 10:02 pm #

    poor u yumyum, r your parent silbings?

  6. Kimberlycun June 23, 2010 at 6:25 pm #

    ky: yeah, i get very melodramatic wahaha

    angelin: thanks :)

    merryn: PMS lor

    yumyum: wah r u a doctor?

    yummy: lol

  7. Sandy June 24, 2010 at 3:54 pm #

    Hi Kim, i always have this pain too..monthly.. this March, i started a product name Organic Blackstrap Molasses (BioGreen) or see here https://www.greenimage.com.my/bio_blackMolesses.html . I am OK for May and June. I am not selling the product, just to share may be you can try up.

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